different music

I'm not a perfect person
there are many things
I wish I didnt do.
But I continue learning.
I never meant to do
those things to you.
And I have to say before I go,
that I just want you to know.
I've found a reason for me,
to change who I used to be,
a reason to start over new....
and the reason is you.


Where did I go wrong,
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up
with you all night
Had I known
how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him
one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder
why you came


as i listen today to different music than usually.. Celtic, soft melo rock (Starsailor, The Fray, Rocket man.. sorry can' t really name it), i just enjoy the great melody variety, and the meaning of the lyrics..
and one more i will add, as it is so popular.. for the 9th week in the top of UK music tops.. so whatever.. don' t know why this so popular, i gues cos so sticky.. hangs in peoples mind's so easily.. so funny lyrics... :D

Rihanna Lyrics

lost my way

Some bits and pieces of what i am goin through:

Tortoises - I think they don' t like me.. they wanna escape, they crash the order in their homplace. but they still eat, so that's good. Pets.. are not the necessity for my life. I am fine with not alive thangs i have to take care of.

Like my clothes.. I did my washing.. one black piece destroyed all my underwear.. from white to greyish white. am so disapointed in my self in washing mashine, its just not the way it should be.

Wherever i go home.. i try to take shortcut, guess what, it always turns out as the longest way home:). i need map to get home. I lost my way, i ended up just going back, just realizing that the way will be too long.

Sport.. I just love sweating in gym, i just love looking forward how far can i go to collapse out of breath. Today i was so ready, so ready to go for run to gym.. i was. untill iat the doorstep i realised that sneakers are not with me (as i am not at home now). I didn' t had so much motivation to go back home then to gym in this HEAT!!! NO Way! and also my shoulder, its again out of place. Auch!

Benny&Joon

another movie of this weekend..

Robots

Big Fish

dear friends, let your imagination flow!
By telling stories you become story.
Big Fish is a 2003 fantasy drama film, directed by Tim Burton and written by John August. It is loosely based on the novel Big Fish: A Novel of Mythic Proportions by Daniel Wallace.

ok, smth more,that is in my after watching this movie. This movie is not for kids. They have their own imagination skills.. and I would say that this movie is for people who have lost these skills, lost the great ability to imagine things, to look at reality with pictures of imagination and really experience them with all and through life.

"We fail today to appreciate its (imagination) tremendous power. The imagination is stronger than conceptual thought and stronger than the will. We simply must become convinced of the importance of thinking and experiencing in images.
Like children need to learn to think logically, adults need to rediscover the magical reality of the imagination." [R. Foster "Celebration of Discipline."]

Sexual Abuse

No matter how loud I write here, it will not be loud enough.
What is wrong with Males here???
TWICE IN THREE DAYS, I EXPERIENCE SEXUAL HARASSMENT.
It does not matter whether it is evening or morning (it has happened on the way to church), no matter what clothes am wearing, that is disgusting, when the person expects that I am just another immigrated eastern European girl that works in cabaret, meats with 50year olds and takes the lover’s place.
Sometimes fancy BMW, sometimes country style car.. slows down or makes weird turns.. and then I see.. that it stops further the road I have to go. As I get closer I notice two staring eyes in the mirror and the window next to his seat is open, and AS I Pass.. I here this 50ty year old male, Cypriot accent “Hallo!?”.. why the first thought is in my mind that he is jerk, stupid or whatever, wanna kick his car, wanna kick his eyes..
Why? Is it like that in all the countries/ some specific cultures? Has anybody prepared the way, so that I am expected to stop and start the conversation and end up as Lover to a rich Cypriot 50ty year old?
I’ve heard the stories about these girls..
heard, that it is common for old Cypriots to have lovers..
heard, that eastern European woman are stealing Cypriot men..

Men will never leave them.. woman still is very important in Cypriot family. Women wins everything in the divorce case.

All by myself

Today, I moved in Rick’s flat.
First of all, questions is – how to clean the carpet?! Can’ t find anything like hover. Second, it is so blue and maleish. I just wanna add anywhere something pink or whatever, just to remind that I am abit more girly than Rick.
I changed the towel – pink!

I’ve put butterfly in the room, that glows in the darkness

I’ve put out my shoe collection. Never thought I will have many shoes, not talking about clothes. But I think the cupboards are pretty small, so it looks I have a lot of stuff. But it’s not so.

Am all by myself. It is weird, haven’ t had this feeling for long time, don’ t know if I ever had it. Maybe when I was fifteen and all alone in flat and studying. Although a lot more support there was still from parents. And then my responsible adult life failed with many mistakes. But I was just 15!!!!

Here – nothing – all by my self.

Another advantage of this adventure is to get to know Man’s style of living. As I am thinking to get married one day, this will be great preparing time.:)
I am taking care of tortoises – I gave them lettuce and am checking sometimes if they are breathing. Never now.
Fish looks still alive, its going all around and up and down the aquarium, so she really. But am pretty sure it is so bored in that glass thing.. I would die cos of boredom. I’ll flush her when she will die. will make a little cross and pray for the soul.

Barbies will not die.

The Original Velveteen Rabbit

Real isn' t how you are made. It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become real.

Once you are Real, you can' t be ugly, except to people who don' t understand.

/Margery Williams/

My Patriotic feelings

Let me introduce you to Brainstorm.. Latvian Band, i would call it one of the best, developed and inspired by original style music, lyrics.
Brainstrom - Tin drums.
+ Pay attention to latvian traditional dancing.


more on Brainstorm

reminder

5minutes that reminds me, how it is to be unfaithful.

weekend off

as i turn around and look into other direction, realising that i need to be alone, enjoy individual activities, not to be aware of anybody next to me and not to strive be in crowd all the time..

went for shopping.. got some stuff, ended up - less than 50 pounds.. :) shoes, underwear, shorts, top, ring... ok, i'll stop..

i guess feeling like really living under the bridge or on the suitcase does not suits me, until i will not settle in my next living place..(Rick's).. and don' t know even there will be very stable.. and then in september (new flat) another room. ehh...
I need more or less regular schedule for life, my own place and feeling that i can put the clothes in cupbord, not like now - all is in big mess on the floor in opened suitcase.. I want to have time with Creator of Universe!!!!

The show

• The show must go on.. i mean my life.
  
  what else i could wish? i have amazing life here in Cyprus, work, place where to live, beach, sunshine, some good people. sometimes thinking, how to leave place where am used to be, where i know more or less the things and places.
  
  as I have come back to country of heat and greek language, i am involved in amazing activities. just a couple of points about that and evaluation:
  


• first time in my life i have socalled mentor. new experience, spicing up my life
  


• i attend socalled muscle making/weight loss place - gym. Wanna be fit and run, run, run!
  


• i am still involved in socalled God's work.. PLACE. [details upon request] not the same,.
  


• i am still interested to have as much as time as I have at the beach. [wednesday night, Larnaca, McKenzy beach] v.good
  


• i have new toys, that's kinda highlight of my playlife.. v.good. need more clothes for my Barbies!!:)


• i have some socalled commitments as I have changed whole range of everything what i did just a couple of months ago. don' t know how i will handle them, but i wanna do my best by God's help. good, good!


• Memories of Spain!


• am alot of time ONLINE.. i am using my opportunity.. Carpe Diem!
  
  another new thing where to spend your time, i am doing it - facebook

am so excited!!

Really.. maybe its just a small thing, but being online.. makes me happy :))

so here i am.. surfing, catching information from all the corners and swimming around the spiders in world wide web..

Blood Diamond (*****five stars from five)

No Diamond in Engagament ring..

Can u imagine Diamond – hundred million treasure in your hands? U will never have a thought to let it out of your hands till the last breath of your life. Do you?
Movie full of passion for getting treasure in own hands and the dream of changing life. only diamond can do that, nothing else.

I cried some three times during the movie, cos it really moved me when I think about Africa, about things that happen there. Africa was called God’s left place. It’s so sad, don’ t wanna believe that it is like that, and am just sitting here and doing nothing to change something there. Actually there are so many things that should be changed, by the good will and decision to change lifestyle or certain activities we take in life. am talking about Asian slaves for clothes’ factories, AIDS all around the world, children dying because of not having enough food, the melting of the ice in Antarctica..

TIA – This Is Africa. This sentence includes so much in itself - full of love and passion towards family members (father was ready to anything to find his son), in the same time ready to waste any kind of life to get what is needed (same tribes, same nation kills each other just like that.. without any regret.) life is about better life. for western world walker (WWW) its is hard to understand, cos WWW has everything, it is good in the place where he is, everything is developed, everything is completed and developed for the highest comfort level, no need to go for better life dreams, cos its acomplished already there in the first day of life.

It is just not fair at all.. Can I save the world?